Chapter II: Faith; now there is an interesting concept. People always seem to have and/or need faith of one type or another, be it in themselves, their friends/family, or vague intangibles. I MySelf have never fully understood the concept of faith as it has never had any real bearing on My Life. I do not put much faith into anything or anyone (other than MySelf, of course), for to do so would be accepting the false notion that I might hold that thing or person as important enough to deserve such an impression...as though I would put them on an equal or higher standard than MySelf. This may sound concieted and callous , and that it may very well be, but, considering My "peers" lack of faith towards My endeavors, I Feel absolutely justified. No, this writing is not a piece of 'whining', but more a tidbit of concentrated Self glorification. I feel proud that I have lived as I live outside the need for the validation of others. After all, I have always been the one I could depend on for the fulfillment of gratuitous faith; always there for MySelf, praising those endeavors which I considered to be worth while, and being the rabble rouser in the motivation of My continued efforts. With MySelf behind Me all the way, it has been rather difficult to give up. Perhaps I may someday show faith beyond My own Self absorbed inclination, but that would take quite a change in the manner of those people around Me. Until then, I will get along just fine as My own favourite cheerleader! |
(10/17/1997) |
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